My Faith?

Behaviors are coping mechanisms… what is underneath all that pain?

The water pipe broke, what is it?
The microwave broke?
My dog died
My lover lied...
Are You taking me through the book of Job?

The pipes froze
The lights broke
The drive to work is doubled,
My food is out in the cold.

I keep seeing my "friends"
the ones that got things tied
in the end.
I see us living in the same house,
but I moved out weeks ago...

I don't know what You want me to do.
Is this the fire that makes
the gold?

Am I being disowned Lord?
Or is this just another book of Job?

Something is broken in my Spirit.
What needs to be done before you fix me?

I'm tired of going to men 
to fix me,
when we are all broken pieces...

waiting for You to speak to me.

What else is broken besides my heart?
If it's us, then I plead, fix me!

Only You can rid me of this sin;
the only disease 
that exists in me.

Psalm 51.

 

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